Afraid of no one but me

I am afraid of no one,
but me
I am terrorized by no one,
but me
I have been burnt at the stake,
crucified and skinned alive
I have been cut into pieces,
hanged and shot
I don't stop killing myself,
inventing new ways to maim and kill
The dance of death
enchants me
Yes, I am human,
the Divine turned crazy
I am afraid of no one,
but me
I am terrorized by no one,
but me

Heaven and Earth

I can't forget that sinking feeling
anchoring me to the earth
The grip is so tight
that I am unable to move
Stuck between heaven and earth
my dreams are in a limbo
The wings of my dreams ain't powerful enough
to withstand the winds of change
The tempest rages within
ready to blow me into smithreens
Have seen a thousand storms
yet I am tired of this struggle
No storm is powerful enough
to change my resolve
Yet, I am bored
of this eternal struggle
I have seen a thousand heavens
but they were just a mirage
The weary wings of my dreams
need some rest
They seek solace and peace,
away from the mindless quest
Why can't the heaven
descend on earth?
Why do we have to fly
to reach it?
I command Thee
to make the heaven earthbound
And I will fly
to reach it midway
Instruct Thy winds
to make me soar heavenwards
My heart wants to move forward,
forward and Godward

The Light within

Sparkling lights everywhere
yet my heart lay in darkness
Caught in an abyss
of endless anger and lust
Fleeting glimpses of Light
aren't enough for my soul
My soul longs for the light,
the Light within
The lights outside are so bright
that they blind me
Blinding me to the light,
the Light within
I will not light any candle this Diwali
cause I don't need this light
The light I need already resides in me,
the Light within
God gave me this Light
to brighten the world
Dimmed by my past
it lost it's shine
Till I realised that all I needed
was to allow it to glow
Now it shines bright within me,
the Light within

Let me return

Let me return
to the oceans of serinity
Away from the mad rush
and pointless run
Let me return
to the tranquil shores
The silent zone beckons me
to taste it's sweet nector
The inner music is waiting
to be heard again
Let me return
to the inner sanctuary
Let me return
to where I belong
Let me return
to lose my self
Let me return
to meet my Self

Give me your pain

Give me your pain
for it is what I want
Give me your sorrow
till the last ache stops hurting you
Give me your tears
till the last tear drop
Hurt and pain belong to the past
yet they are real for you today
The seeds of love are planted deep within
yet the weeds of pain won't let them bloom
Till there is pain in you
you can't see the love
Others can't see your love
like I see it in you
Give me your love
for that's what I want
Nay, give me your pain
for that's what I want

You and I are One

Doubt me not,
for I am as real as You
I exist just like you,
the real flesh and blood
We may be separate
yet we are one
United in pain,
joined by the Love
Eons ago we were one
fused together in one shell
We chose to separate
to experience life as individual
Life may have many forms
yet life is but one
WHat you call as an individual
is but a manifestation of the One
From One it came
and in One it merges
Have you seen one flame in two candles?
Yes, you and I are One.

The Magnet

I wish I possesed a magnet,
a healing magnet
It would draw all pain
and heal people
It's touch would make people complete,
hale and hearty
It would end the human suffering
and bring peace to the world
For years I searched for this magical device
in every nook and crevice
I found no one
who possesed this magnet
Then one day I saw a dream
and in it I saw this magnet
This magnet resides
in each one of us
It works for the man
who has a genuine desire to heal
Healing flows through that man
whose sole intent is to end the suffering
This healing magnet is our heart
and it's activated by Love
There is no magic but Love
and there's no healer but God

Signs

Signs are omens that tell you
that you are on the Path
A Unique language,
created specially for you
Messages from your Higher Self,
your link to the Source
The more you trust the Source,
the more signs you get
Helping you on every step
on your jouney towards the Whole
They help you unravel
the mystery of Life
If you aren't grounded
the Signs may confuse you
I have been led by the Signs
to my destined path
Lord's voice speaks to me
through the Signs
Nudging me, guiding me
and protecting me
Without the Signs,
I was wandering aimlessley
If it were not for the Signs
I wouldn't be a healer

The struggle continues

The struggle continues,
my struggle to become complete
The pain comes and goes at will,
seemingly having a mind of it's own
Wish life was black and white
but I am inundated with shades of grey
Can't make out black from the white,
what appears white from a distance is actually grey
Maybe it's my vison which has blurred
and not the life which has changed colors
Maybe the struggle is to accept
the darkness within me
Just wishing won't make it go away
the darkness of the centureies
Didn't know Light and dark can exist together
playing a game of hide and seek
Can't say who is going to win this game
but Darkness seems to be winning at the moment
I am distinctly aware of the Light within
but it remains passive at the best
Acceptance is the only thing I can do,
that's what's within my realm
Yes, I am both Dark and Light
but one thing I don't know
Whether the Light is enveloping the darkness
or the Darkness is enveloping the Light

The Struggle

My struggle is over,
the struggle to become complete.
My pain is gone,
gone forever
When the demons left,
they took the pain away with them
Now only Peace resides,
where pain once existed.
The void has been filled
with divine Love.
Love so deep it fills me completely,
leaving no traces of darkness

The Past

The past ins't dead yet,
the ancient history thrives within me
Shackled by the history,
my present is a prisoner to the past
My soul hurts,
from the needles of the past
Needles so deep,
they bruise my soul
I am carrying this burden for ages
but can't take it any longer
The load gets heavier by the day
becoming a mountain
My soul can't breathe
under the burden of this load
O Lord, I pray to Thee
rid me of this burden
My soul cries to become free,
free of the past forever
You are free when you decide to become free,
replied the Lord
Stay in the Now
and rid of the past
You carry the past
for it serves a purpose
Do you really need to display your wounds?
Asked the Lord
The past is over
yet you carry it on your shoulder
Come to me
and I'll bear your burden
And ever since
the Lord is carrying my past

I and my demons

They lay asleep within me for centuries,
for I was unaware they existed
Slowly I became aware of them
when I saw myself lose myself
They could erupt any moment
and go back to their lair
I was afraid, very afraid,
of confronting them
Then one day I found the courage
to take them head on
I challanged them to show themselves
and why they were here
We are inseparable from you,
they said
We are here to wrest you away from God,
It's the Light that we fight
The Light above smiled at this
and chose to shine on me with full Force
The demons lay scattered beside me
motionless and almost dead
They were much smaller than I thought,
and less darker
What I saw next
was a miracle,
They grew wings,
turned into Light and flew away

Can I trust you?

Can I trust you?
I asked her
Yes, she replied
but her eyes were silent
My heart could sense
that her soul was hiding something
What is she hiding from me?
I asked my soul
She is keeping from you
what you can't confront within yourself
She is hiding her demons,
answered my soul
Can you trust youself?
asked my soul.
I was silent
but not the demons inside me
Both of us were hiding from each other,
the demons within us.

Reality

Reality is an illusion
because perception is the reality
I don't exist
except in your waking dream
The myriad dramas of life
are nothing but a dream
A dream made real by you
as you gave it life through your Being
Life descended into flesh through you
to experience these dreams
If today I am a villain in your dream,
it mirrors the evil inside you
If I am the love you are seeking
that love already exists with you
I am neither evil nor a saint
except a character in your waking dream
If you don't like your dream don't blame me,
for you are the creater of your dream

Rivers of pain

Let me cry the rivers of pain,
let me rinse myself of it all
Let there be no pain anymore
no wounds of love
My shattered soul is in tatters
longing to be whole again
Longing to meet it's Source,
the fount of Love
An ocean of tears is waiting to explode inside me,
looking for a crack in the dam
Will you be by my side
when the deluge arrives?
For I need you to maroon me to the shore of love
Lest I get carried away by the pain

Silent Whispers

The silent whispers of eternity,
call me from afar.
Choking the life out of me,
making me breathless.
The haunting mirage
never leaves me alone
The mist of hope recedes into distance
letting the darkness engulf my being
The Angels don't hear my calling
blissfully enjoying their Heavens
Will you stand by me in my darkest hour,
I asked her.
She remained silent,
gripped by fear
Unable to move,
immobilized by interia
Her lips moved but words were frozen,
just like her soul.
I closed my eyes
unable to bear the silence.
When I opened my eyes,
she was gone.
Never to return in my waking life
yet haunting me in my dreams each night.
The haunting continued,
sapping my soul
Devouring it from the core
leaving it lifeless
I wandered like a waif
from one shore of hell to another
The shores of hell seemed endless
just like my suffering
Each oasis I saw
turned out to be a mirage
Then one day I gave up
the struggle to live
Offerring myself to be devoured
by hunger, pain and agony
No longer did I seek
Love and Light, but only death
Eons passed in this unending wait
for the messenger of death to arrive
Then one day I saw a light coming my way
hurtling towards me at lightening speed
Expecting death I lay still
waiting for my suffering to end
The ball of light struck me
and I fell down
When the "I" falls down,
it signals the end of suffering
For darkness begins to form
when the "I" comes between You and Light

I got bombed today

I got bombed today,
Yes I got bombed today
A part of me,
killed another part of me
Nay, a part of me,
tried to kill another part of me.
A part of me hates
another part of me
A part me wants to shred to tears
another part of me
A part of me wants to hang to death,
another part of me
A part of me wants to burn alive
another part of me
A part of me wants to terrorise
another part of me
A part me wants to bomb
another part of me
Yet, a part of me loves
another part of me
My heart bleeds for the bomber and the bombed
'cause both are children of the same God
If God can love them both,
how can I love one and hate another

I and my pain

Tears don't stop flowing
the heart doesn't stop hurting.
The pain is endless
with no end in sight.
Where did it spring forth from?
Who fathered this wretched thing?
It came uninvited,
tearing my life apart.
It turned my heart into stone,
sucking dry my ocean of love.
Hatred and anger sprang from it,
covering my life into darkness.
I became my worst enemy,
hating every fiber of my being.
The pain made me numb,
unable to feel, act or move.
My life force dwindled,
ephemeral, evanascent, transient.
I lost touch with reality,
pain bacame my only reality.
I wrote odes to pain,
immersing myself in it every waking moment.
God was an unknown entity,
relegated to an unknown lair.
My voice never reached Him
for He had gone deaf.
Deaf was the God,
and so were his Angels.
Never caring once,
for this God forsaken child.
Wasn't I a child of God,
just like every other being.
Why did I go through hell,
for no fault of mine.
In return for my love,
only hurt and deceit did I get.
When I surrendered,
people trampled on me.
When I gave love,
they fled away taking away my trust.
How could God make such a horrible world,
horrible, painful and ugly.
Ugly is the world and ugly are it's beings,
Or so I thought.
I chanced upon a stranger,
who talked about God.
He knew my pain,
more than I knew it.
He felt so right,
but caused me fright.
Pain is an illusion,
Said the stranger.
The harder you fight it,
the stronger it gets.
Confront it in it's face,
and it melts away into thin air.
Like it never existed,
except in your imagination.

Seek the Truth

Hope is a delusion,
that deludes many.
Have you found the Joy,
without the seed of pain within it?
Have you found the shore,
that doesn't have another end?
Have you found Love,
without sadness in it's fold.
Look for the Truth,
for in it's lair none else resides.
Devoid of deception,
Truth lays bare everything.
Devoid of attachment,
it pains no one.
Devoid of suffering,
it hurts no one.
It is Just it is,
like you are Who you are.

Nature of the Soul

Soaring in the air,
yet not aloft.
Touching the water,
yet not wet.
Such is the nature
of the Soul.
Living in the world,
yet not of the world

Touched by a stranger

I have been touched by a stranger,
Stranger I never met.
No that's a lie,
Our eyes did meet.
And I saw the depth of my soul
Reflected in his eyes.
I have been touched by a stranger,
Stranger I never met.
Who knows it might have been Him
For He comes in the garb of a man.
But He is not a stranger to me,
Even though strange are His ways.
Maybe the stranger was sent by Him,
To touch me, heal me and remind me.
In every stranger we meet,
Is a chance to meet Him.
I have been touched by a stranger,
Stranger I never met

The flickering flame

In the midst of a storm,
lay burning, a flickering flame.
When the storm was raging,
it flickered, running helter and skelter.
It seemed as if it would die soon,
but the intensity only grew larger.
The flame refused to die,
and chose to burn bright.
For it knew no purpose
than to give Light where darkness lay.
When the storm died down,
the calm was restored.
And the flame burned bright and high,
throwing myriad colors in all directions.
It has been burning for centuries,
giving Light to the world.
It has seen a thousand storms,
yet none could touch it.
For when the Hands of God are protecting you
no storm can touch you.

A soldier died today

A soldier died today,
A brave soldier.
Defending his country,
Against the enemy.
I was saddened and shocked
At the death of the brave soldier.
My heart wept at the thought
Of the mother who lost her son.
Anger and rage erupted inside me
Directed at the enemy which took away a life.
A mother lost her son,
A young bride her husband.
May the enemy burn in hell,
Which brought about this tragedy.
Suddenly, the TV flashed a news,
The soldier that died was an enemy soldier.
My sadness turned to glee,
At the sight of the news.
It was indeed a good news,
'Cause it was not a soldier that died,
An enemy died,
Which was neither a human nor a soldier.
A soldier died today,
Nay, an enemy died today.

The fallen star

From the sky fell a star
A newborn baby.
Abandaned by it's family but
Accepted by the earth.
The star felt strange on the earth
For it no longer shone in the sky.
It lost it's lustre and glow,
It got muddied by the earth.
It felt sad at it's fate
That it was no longer a star.
It longed for the Light
Which gave it the shine.
It looked at the earthings
And bemoaned their fate.
They didn't know how to shine,
Like he did once in the sky.
He thought they have no light
For it takes light to shine.
Little did he know that the light which gave him shine
did not belong to him but the Sun.
All stars think that they shine by their own light,
What a pity they don't know the Source of Light.
Upon seeing the sad star, the Source decided to reveal His presence.
As soon as that happened,
The once sad star now shone brighter than any other star.

The ecstacy

Two naked bodies lay next to each other,
intertwined as if they were never separate.
Holding each other,
loving, caressing and enjoying the nakedness.
Lost into each other,
oblivious to the world around them.
The world didn't exist anymore,
only the two, nay, one of them.
For they had now become one,
merged together into unity.
Love emerged and started it's motions
and they responded in unison.
Love was the music
and they became the instrument.
Playing the music of Love,
and their bodies moving in response.
This play went for don't know how long,
till they reached the crescendo.
Time paused, space dissolved into nothingness
and a billion stars exploded into joy.

My aching, bleeding heart

You took my heart and flew away
Never to return to the shore I belong.
It's been so long that the memories have faded
But the feelings haven't changed one bit.
You wrenched my heart from my chest
Never caring one bit for my aching bleeding heart
My heart must be lying somewhere
Aching, bleeding and unattended
Lying on the ground,
Sad that it had to leave my body.
When God looked upon my aching, bleeding heart,
He took it and lifted it up
And placed it among the stars
Above the clouds
Now my heart shines in the sky
My once aching, bleeding heart.

The Screaming Silence

From the depths of my being
emerged a silence, a screaming silence.
It penetrated the ether
and reached billions of stars, yet completely silent.
Silent yet powerful,capable of shattering the sky
and reaching beyond the frontiers of the Universe.
This reverberating silence emanated from me,
and echoes within the Universe.
The world failed to notice it,
yet it impacts them every moment.
When my inner voice spoke to me,
it spoke to me very silently.
It didn't need to scream at all,
the screaming silence.
Now I enjoy the music everyday,
Of this screaming silence.
This slience reverbrates in the Universe,
this screaming silence.

I and the Light

When the Darkness covered my skies,
more than a decade ago
The light felt so distant as if
it never existed anymore
I was in shambles
knowing nowhere to go
The guiding light departed
leaving me marooned at the shore
Struggling, suffering, bleeding,
waiting for an imminent death.
To suffer seemed my only destiny,
to bleed my only Karma
Hatred and Anger became my friends
never to leave my side one moment
They hurt me more when I tried to reason
that I hurt no one on purpose
They said when Love departs,they arrive,
never to leave.
It did seem like an unending ordeal,
with no beginning and no end.
Little did I realise that I had bargained for it
to taste the life on earth
Begging God to give me a chance,
to return to the shore I had left
Empty, unfinished, unpolished
the work I began as a child.
Now I am once again free.
Love never returned,
it didn't have to
It was always there,
only I had turned blind to it.
The Light never departed,
the blind me couldn't see it.
The God didn't die,
how could He?
For He gives life to everyone,
even the one who sins.
So my friend, never waste a moment
to see the Light that shines within you.
Shining so bright,
it doesn't need you.
You need it to shine,
so it's You.
The Light is You,
THE LIGHT IS YOU.

I am naked before You

What can I hide from You,
the All Knowing?
What can I steal from You,
the All Pervading?
WHat can I wrest from You,
the All Giving?
What can I offer You but myself?
I am naked before You.
I am naked before You.

I am nothing but You

Waiting, longing, seeking,....
for the One
Who will make me complete,
from head to toe, top to bottom, inside out
You have eluded me for so long,
The time has stopped still,
since you said that you will come.
My eyes have grown weary,
but not my heart.
Which belongs to you
and only YOU.
I can suffer no more,
for I know YOU have arrived.
My longing has been answered,
by the Almighty YOU.
I had enjoyed my pain,
but not anymore.
I want the bliss of YOUR company,
your Unbound Love and Limitless Wisdom.
Make me yours,
forever yours.
I have no shame in showing my nakedness to you,
for You created me.
I am nothing but You.
I am nothing but You.

I can't write poems

I will never say now
that I can't write poems.
'cause I don't,
the words are not mine.
They just flow,
when they feel like it.
Just like a river,
meandering it's way across the ocean,
even when merged into it.

The Darkness rises

The Darkness rises,
from it's lair.
To fight the Light,
to light the fight.
Darkness cannot win,
however hard it fights.
For the Darkness to exist,
it needs the Light.
For if Light didn't exist,
Darkness couldn't be.
When the I becomes
larger than the Light,
The Darkness arises,
for it needs the I to fight the Light.
The Darkness arises,
to show it's presence.
To let us know that,
Light is the essence.
LIGHT IS THE ESSENCE.

Love knows no boundaries

Love knows no boundaries,
to shacke it is the biggest sin.
We love no one but ourselves,
to love another is a sin.
To love another,
one needs to be free.
So free as free can be,
Free forver as free can be.
Free from the the boundaries,
LOve can't see.
Love is blind,
Love can't see.
For love has no boundaries,
Love can just be.

The Suffering

To suffer is our destiny,
so do we believe.
To suffer is our destiny,
for that's what we seek.
To suffer is our destiny,,
if that's what we seek.
To choose is our destiny,
but we choose to suffer.
Because to suffer is our destiny,
so do we believe.

Hidden is the key

Hidden is the key,
to the unlocked door.
"Hidden" is the key,
the door is always open.
It is not locked,
it never was.
Only the key is hidden.
We search for the key,
for we are taught that
No door can open without the key.
He made the door,
without a key.

Honesty

Honesty is to become naked,
pretending no one can see you.
To be naked, you need not fear
for everyone is naked when he is born
Naked as we are,
beneath our clothes.
Our masks hide us,
the hide masks us
To be naked is to be free,
the perfect state to be.

The Light has arrived

The Light has arrived,
to stay forever.
Forever is a long time,
for the Light to stay
What if it goes away,
before Forever ends?
Forever never ends,
not does it begin.
Light never arrives,
Nor does it leave.

The Light

We all seek the Light
which shows us the path.
For to see, we need the eyes
that can see afar.
Ears, which can see the unheard.
Lungs, which can breathe the unsung.
To seek the Light,
one needs to know.
That he doesn't need to seek it anymore.
That's all he needs to know.
That's all he needs to know.